queenie

I want to hold you tight baby

2007-10-28T07:30:00.000-07:00

This is how i feel and i want to hold you tight baby... Especially the words in red.

林亿莲-至少还有你
曲: davy chan 词:林夕

我怕来不及我要抱着你
直到感觉你的皱纹有了岁月的痕迹
直到肯定你是真的直到失去力气
为了你我愿意
动也不能动也要看着你
直到感觉你的发线有了白雪的痕迹
直到视线变得模糊直到不能呼吸
让我们形影不离
如果全世界我也可以放弃
至少还有你值得我去珍惜
而你在这里就是生命的奇迹
也许全世界我也可以忘记
就是不愿意失去你的消息
你掌心的痣我总记得在那里
我怕来不及我要抱着你
直到感觉你的发线有了白雪的痕迹
直到视线变得模糊直到不能呼吸
让我们形影不离
如果全世界我也可以放弃
至少还有你值得我去珍惜
而你在这里就是生命的奇迹
也许全世界我也可以忘记
就是不愿意失去你的消息
你掌心的痣我总记得在那里
我们好不容易我们身不由已
我怕时间太快不够将你看仔细
我怕时间太慢日夜担心失去你
恨不得一夜之间白头永不分离
如果全世界我也可以放弃
至少还有你值得我去珍惜
而你在这里就是生命的奇迹
也许全世界我也可以忘记
就是不愿意失去你的消息
你掌心的痣我总记得在那里
在那里

A special sentence by you

2007-10-01T06:20:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday, meet baby at his house and went for dinner afterwards at beergarden. It has been awhile since we dine there and both of us simply love the sheng mian there. We were talking about 2 lady we saw last friday at woosh pub or bar ( i am not very sure).

Last friday, baby and I went to this very comfy and relaxing pub near Tanglin with his friends. It's almost the same as One Roochester. A pity that we didn't take picture as the environment there was just too nice and comfy for friends to catch up. I think my birthday this year will be at this pub. The price was reasonable i would say and the best part was there is live band there to add some lovely music to the whole atmosphere. Before we leave , we saw 2 beautiful lady outside the toilet and they were those typical type of "high-class" pretty judging from what they wear. Those guys nearly have their nose bleeding! Then when we were eating our dinner on saturday, baby suddenly talked about the 2 lady we saw at the pub.

Baby:" wa... those 2 was really very pretty leh! so tall and slim!"
Me:" yaya, but you need alot of money to have them as your GF"
Baby:" Ya, but still can try ma."
Me:" Can, but the 1st thing you need to do is dump me!"
Baby:"haha.. Dump you ar!!"
Me:" Ya la.. but if you have no money then i think its very hard to attract them."
Baby:" To be with me, you will get nothing. All you get was my love... All my love."

I kept quiet, but baby, I want to tell you that I was touch and surprised that you will said that. As i told you, what you say is true but having you love is the most precious thing that anyone could ever dream of. Love you.. Yes.. All your love...

For baby...

2007-08-24T23:25:00.000-07:00

Artist: 98 degree Title: I Do

I do I do
Ooh
All I am
All I'll be
Everything in this world
All that I'll ever need
Is in your eyes
Shining at me
When you smile I can feel
All my passion unfolding
Your hand brushes mine
And a thousand sensations
Seduce me
'Cause I

I do (cherish you)
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
I do

Ooh,Baby

Ooh

In my world
Before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
Until that day
I found you
How you opened my life
To a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all of my heart
Till my dying day

I do (cherish you)
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
Yes,I do
I do
If you're asking do I love you this much
Baby
I do (cherish you)
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
Baby,I do
I, I, I do

Getting married tomorrow?

2007-08-15T07:13:00.000-07:00

I swear that i really laugh out loud when i woke up on Tuesday morning! Because I had a wonderful and funny dream! My dream was very scattered and my dream was related to me getting married on the next day.

It's about my family and i doing lots of wedding preparations for my wedding and i can't remembered very clearly. Curious on who am i going to marry to? It's non other than my beloved baby Mr Ngiam! If it's someone else, i will wake up with "huh?? why not cliff" But lucky enough it's him. Wei baby, i dream of you even when i am asleep! There is 2 thing in my dream which leave me with deep impression. The first one was baby's bog smiling face but i don't know what is he smiling at? The other thing was me and my darlings having girl's night out before my wedding at a kopitiam! I told them my dream and Jun asked me why is it at kopitiam. In my dreams i still struggling whether i want to get married on the next day. I kept asking them whether should i get married or is it too fast for me. But all my darling said" get married la... Why don't want. Just marry him!" Haha... The funny part wad in the end of my dream, i don't whether did i managed to get married!

After i told them about my dream, they just can't stop laughing. So i asked Jin what type of wedding gown. She said she will wear very less so me and Jan thought that it's those normal tube one but to our surprised, she said she want to wear something liked bikini style-liked wedding gown. You can imagine what kind of expression on Jan and my face and the only thing we could say is "WOW!" So i told her that she need to wear a transparent gown over it so that it will look formal and it matched the bikini style-liked one she is wearing. At the same time i am thinking about what Jin will wear as bottom and before i could say it, Jan laugh like nobody business.............. Imagine a bride wearing a bikini with heels. ....... We have been teasing JIn till now. I am looking forward to her wedding in the future.

But i never tell baby about what i dream because i am scare that the response he gave me was i am thinking too much. Then i will be disappointed as similar things have happened last time when i said i dream of him. But the reply he gave me was as if i am hinting him something. So i haven't tell him yet. Maybe later... He was busy studying for his exam now and have little time to talk to me. Ache my heart t see him so stressed out and tired. But this bad boy should learn some time management and the Do's and Don'ts for exam...

I miss him ....

NIE!!

2007-08-03T23:15:00.000-07:00

Went to NIE so-called orientation last Monday and i don't feel good at all!! It's super far for me and Jan and i ask JAnJAn why do we have to do that? All our schools were very very far from our house. !st it's Ngee Ann, next was the china trip and it's out of Singapore! Lastly, our final destination before we truly become a qualify teacher was NIE! It's at the end of Singapore and why can't they build it at Sengkang? We have lots of space at punggol 21!!!

I must say the whole NTU is located on a hill!!!! And NIE was just a part of NTU! It's all up hills and it's worst than NP. At least NP gave me a very happening and "life"feeling but not NIE. It gave me a feeling of a hospital and all the classroom were just like a ward. Just that they never paste the room number tag outside the classroom. When i step into NIE, i have a very weird feeling that the whole building is compressing me! Scary and yet i have no choice but to bear with it for the next 1 1/2 years. The long stretch of road we have to pass through before we even reach the main gate of NTU is just a stretch of forest! Please don't be alone alone that stretch of road as you might bang into some creature from the forest of worst, kidnap by some monkeys!

Got our timetable and i am glad that every Thursday we don't have lesson and all lesson starts at 930 sharp everyday. But still, it's a bonus for me and Jan as it won't be rushing for us. Only me, I have to wake up at 6 everyday so as not to be late! Being late is a serious matter in NIE as NIE is a collage to train teacher.The best part is the dress code part. I can say that this bunch of 42 of us will be the most outstanding in NIE. Dress code is really formal so we decide to tone down for the 1st week 1st. haha......

We went to the library and when we looked down from the library, it's like Jurassic park and the dinosaur will pop out any moment. If you stand on the bridge in NIE, opposite you will be JB

Help!!!!!!! For what i know, the lecturer we will be facing in NIE will not be as nice as our beloved Nan Nan lao shi.

I love my bro....

2007-08-03T22:47:00.000-07:00

I am blessed to have since a nice brother. He Q for 2 hours just to but donuts from Donuts factory for me! He promised that he will get me donuts when i am back and yes he fulfill his promised! He bought 24 donuts in 8 different flavours! I hive been told that the donuts from Donuts factory is awesome and i was dieing to try it out. But when i actually ate it, it's really different from the usual donuts we ate as it come in many flavours. Personally, i think it's special but i won't Q up for it as it's not that heavenly after all. It's new and thus everyone want to try it. The special thing about the donuts from Donuts factory was almost all donuts have filling. It's bake-and-sell so every donuts is fresh!Thanks bro.......

5 flavours here.. I just love the heart shape one.....

another 3 flavours....

This is the orange with white chocolate...

This is chocolate with lotus paste as fillings

This is glaze..original taste

This is chocolate with peanut

This is white chocolate with strawberry fillings!!

This is double chocolate. Rich chocolate fillings inside..

This is apple with Cinnamon.. my brother favourite

happy 1 year anniversary baby

2007-07-28T23:24:00.000-07:00

Happy 1 year anniversary baby!!! Love you! Although is yesterday but i till want to say I LOVE YOU BABY!

A very sweet weekend end..

2007-07-23T08:20:00.000-07:00

I gave baby a surprised on last wed or thurs,i can't remember the exact date. But i think he was touched and baby is so cute. We watched the Transformer together as he really waited for me to be back and kept his promised to watch it with me. We went to AMK hub to watch and that was the 1st time i went to AMK hib since i came back. I must say AMK resident is lucky! To have since a nice and convenient shopping centre nearby which contain so many nice shops. We can eat New York New York in neighbourhood! Plus we won't have to travel too far to watch a movie, we watched it at AMK hub and shop there!!

After the movie, baby drive me home but before that he yearn to eat waffle very very much. But by the time we finish watching the movie, it's already 10 plus coming to 11pm. Which means most of the bakery or should i say all the bakery have already closed. So no choice, he can't get to eat waffles. And this idea of mine just came across my mind the next day. I decided to gave him a surprised by giving him a sudden drop by and delivery him 2 waffles.Tada!!! Plan successed and i am so scared ad nervous when i was waiting outside his house. I called baby up when i am approaching his house and asked him to come out of his house for awhle as i have something to pass to him. He as so shocked and asked me what was i doing outside his house. I just said :"come out la! got something to give you! Just come out la piggy ngiam!." So he came out of his house and i gave him a waffle and he gave me a big hug. Contended.

i love singapore..

2007-07-17T08:43:00.000-07:00

I AM FINALLY BACK HOME!!! YES.. BACK IN SINGAPORE... When i am on th plane reaching singapore and when i saw this piece of land, i am super touched. It's very har for me to describe the feelings but my tears just roll down. I love singapore!!! This is the 1st time that i felt so touched by just returning to singapore.

We were very busy before we returned home as we need to settle alot of stuff. Too mqany to name and busy packing and repacking our luggage. Before we left out hostel, i took a last looked. The place where i spend my joy and the place where i shed tears for the past 4 months plus. It's a mixture of happy and sad moment for me. I yearn to go home by on the other hand, i can't bear to part with all my friends. Many people asked me the same question"are you happy to go home". I will say yes of course,but still,living in an enviroment for so long you will adapt to it.

been packing my things now AND I AM HAVING HEADACHE. There will be no more "11pm off internet" stupid rules and here i am still happily using my internet now.

Going home...

2007-07-12T04:15:00.000-07:00

Back from a 4D3N Beijing trip. Personally, i think that this trip is the most benefical among so many trips we went. Get to see alot of ancient things and learn alot of knowledge from the profound history of China. Everything is different from Hangzhou here in terms of people, culture and the whole environment. Beijing gave me a very "unique old city" which you can still see what is going on 5000yrs ago. Bought alot of stuff in xiu shui streets. It's similar to bugis but its much cheaper of cause. Nevertheless, i shop till i drop and in the end i spent around 800Rmb. opps.....

I officially announced that i am broke. As the days of we going back, we spent alot. GST is 7% now mind you. All our "investments" in long-term, My emotions now is very complicated. As time passed we are adapt to the lifestyle here and having all the friends with you living under one roof.
When i am back when i say :"momomomomo.. janice ng momo", no one will entertain me.
When i say:"jinjin, what are we eatin? order what waimai leh?"
Or when i say:"ke xiao peng, don't act cute hor!".
When i say:"carmen, this fri we go gong lian ok?" There will be no more gong lian !No one will be there to answer me. The days where the 5 of us walked to classroom during the freezing cold weather during winter and not forgetting the hot summer here.
No more niu nai gui ling gao. '
No more ji dan chao mian.
No more fang yuan zhu pai fan and bing shuang hong cha.
No more lemon tea
No more top up card
No more nan-men shopping.
No more yan an lu shopping.
No more paying 12Rmb for washing clothes.
No more "11pm cut-off Internet" golden rules.
Lots more...AH............... need to adapt again. But the though that i can see baby very soon makes me feel better.

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Last paper..

2007-07-02T21:27:00.000-07:00

I will be having my last paper tomorrow, my semester study will officially end. Which means we are going home. I still have alot of things i have yet to buy. Be it family or friends. So this friday, I will be having my last "shop till I drop and broke" shopping trip to get all my things! My history paper i will gave it a ok due to the lack of time and i cant finished the paper. So having a open book exam may not be a good thing as i have a tendency to copy alot which cause my right hand to be aching after the paper! Our lecturer who is in charged of us told us that some of our results is out for our individual paper. Overall, everyone passed and i am eager to know my philosophy result.

Got some details of out short trips to Beijing on the 7th of July and the good news was we will be boarding a plane and fly to Beijing! We don't have to travel by coach for don't know how many hours. That time we went to shanghai by coach, we spend around 6 hours on road so Beijing was further so I can't imagine how many hours I have to sit!

Yesterday have a talked with baby about something that is in my heart since the day at the airport. Going to have another deeper talk with baby when i have the chance. I hope everything will be smooth and no force will stop us. I am those type who will out to do anything just for love. Some will asked me that how I know he is the one. He never told me that I am the one too but i don't care u see,. I treasure what i have now and i will never give up and let go. I hope he is supportive enough to walk this journey with me as i believed that we will have many happy and beautiful memory if we overcome it. I love you baby

Was watching some very very tragic youtube short video with Jun just now. It was damn sad and some really happened in real life. Most of it was Korea short video and of course that will mean death. But it's romantic you see, maybe some will think it's those typical storyline but asked yourself that will you die for the one you loved. My answer is YES. I remember that there was a time i watched some Honkong racing show with baby featuring Andy Lau and some female actress. It's a story about racing and during a race, the actress die and Andy Lau survived. I am so so so touched by it. Baby told me that there was this friend of his who was married and this couple was so loving. His wife is pregnant and it was already 7th month or so, the stomach was real big and you know that the due date of the baby was close. There was a time i seen the couple when they have gathering and they went racing. I asked baby that why his friend allow his wife to be in the car when he raced. You know what baby told me? He said that it was the wife who want to be in the car, she said that if anything happened, the both of then will die together plus the baby. I know it sounds abit irresponsible but you can see the love in them. Strong and it's beyond death. I told baby that whenever he raced, i want to be in the car too, if anything happened, i don't want to bear the pain be rather be with him. I mean it. Some will say silly, childish or whatever, but having the courage to do it need love. I won't want lose him and be alone, i rather go find him if anything happened.

It's not about silly but the strength of love which you will say and do something which you can't explain yourself. You can say that I am those who take love very "hardly" and i will say yes i am. Don't be scared but it because this is me. My happiness and everything i yearn for in love comes from love itself, but true enough, it's my weakness too.

Last paper tomorrow and 12days away from home and baby. Love you my love... I will stand in there and please hold my back and don't let me fall..........
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philosophy exam ytd...

2007-06-25T22:06:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my Chinese philosophy test. We were lucky as the exam was an open book exam. My philosophy was all "tagged" with colorful paper tags so i could refer to it and not waste my time. The exam was quite smooth..

After i attend this philosophy lesson, i realised that i have a deep interest in philosophy, be it western or Chinese. The people who came out with all these profound thinking and theory of the nature, human race and more was dead 5000 years ago! Can you imagine?? People who was in the ancient have already study about human. Why human think this way etc. The amazing part was it apply logically to our modern world now.

For example, Lao Zi. the said that everything we had now, our material world came from nothing. And all these thing was named as "wu" as everything have no named Right from the beginning. Is was human who gave them names and so we know what is table today. Why table is called table and is not chair.. So on....

I am amazed and being enlighten by all these thinking. I am limited Vocabs i can used and one who want to know what is philosophy MUST do reading.

Its a knowledge which will broaden the things you see and make you think in depth.

A song i love... underneath your clothes

2007-06-23T01:44:00.000-07:00

Singer: Shakira Title : Underneath your clothes

You’re a song
Written by the hands of God
Don’t get me wrong couse
This might sound to you a bit odd
But you own the place
Where all my thoughts go hiding
And right under your clothes
Is where I find them

Underneath your clothes
There’s an endless story
There’s the man I chose
There’s my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such agood gril honey

Because of you
I forgot the smart ways to lie
Because of you
I’m running out of reasons to cry
When the friends are gone
When the party’s over
We will still belong to each other

Underneath your clothes
There’s an endless story
There’s the man I chose
There’s my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such agood gril honey

I love you more than all that’s on the planet
Movin" talkin walkin" breathing
You know it’s true
Oh baby it’s so funny
You almust don’t believe it
As every voice is hanging from the silence
Lamps are hanging from the ceiling
Like a lady to her good manners
I’m tied up to this feeling

Underneath your clothes
There’s an endless story
There’s the man I chose
There’s my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such agood gril honey

go away..

2007-06-21T21:13:00.000-07:00

argh!!! I am really very "lucky" to have this kind of thing happened before the start of my exam next week. Yesterday morning when i woke up,I have this painful feeling arousing around my left eye. I felt that my left eye was swollen but not very serious. So i never bother about it until late at night, my left eye was swollen and it's like having red eyes. There is this hot sensation around my left eye and it's itchy. I thought i was bitten by some UFO insect in our room but NO! Jin told me it was some kind of internal eye pimple and it will get bigger as the day goes by! I was so shocked because I have never had this kind of thing inside my eye in my 20 years of life! It's pain whenever i blink my eyes and i cant stare at things for a long period of time.

So how am I going to study for my exam! I don't why ever since young, whenever it's exam period, my body will developed this "must sick" syndrome which basically will come true. Either i will have sore throat or running nose whenever it's around exam corner. WHY? Why can't my body let me study in peace? Hate it. And after my exam , i will have flu and fever. Yes.. It's true. Be it N or O level, i have experienced it and it's tested and proven! Karmene said it will recover in a week r 2 depending on how big is the pimple. Jin said it will take 3 to 4 days and i hope it will goes away asap! I don't like pimple but yet this time round it camp at such a weird place

pimple pimple go away.. never to come back again. It's like something went into your eye and you can't wash it out. It's painful and itchy and i can scratch!!!! Jun say i am heaty and thanks to Lum lum (carmen), she lent me this eye drop which will help relief pain and redness. Also not forgetting Jin who gave me this external cream to apply for my "pimple". Thanks babes. Also jun and jan for stopping me of eating biscuit.

Anyway.. hope i can recover fast as i can't afford to do badly for my exam. Regardless of what, i will still study even though it's pain because i rally want to do well and prove to my parents that i can handle r/s and studies well. What i need nowis a super effective eye drop or medicine which can get rid of this annoying pimple inside my eye!

Baby say i look too much at guys, Wrong, it's because I look too much of baby's photo because i missed him too much.

to miss chen....

2007-06-19T04:42:00.000-07:00

haha....okok.. Lum lum.. i blog le ok.... Yesterday was our beloved miss chen peijin birthday!!!! We actually gave her a surprised as we bough a cake for her and celebrate her birthday when the time strick 12am. A book related to Dong bang shin ki was given to her and she was overjoyed.. She is really in love with them.. Her hero!

So went to straits cafe to have our dinner and I am so blessed that i lived in singapore! The straits cafe is so what liked our cafe cartel,but of course cafe cartel is still the best compared to straits. Smokers were all over and we were really smurged in smokes!!! In singapore, there will be smoking and nonsmokeing area. Even if I am with baby, we will have our food at the non-smoking area and after that head to the smoking area. But down here in china is another story!!!! So we requsted to changed out seats and the attitude floor manager gave us a black face,not the waitress! Argh.. we pay for the service and the food not her black faced. The food there was nice and i love the cakes!!!! I must say Jin is really independant as she celebrate her birthday here.

This will be a long post.. Our exam is just 1 week away and after that we will enjoy a 2 weeks break before we go HOME! BUt i have this complicated feeling . I yearn and want to go home asap but on the other hand, I am afraid that i will miss the fod and the super worth it stuff! I will miss the days when the 5 of us gather and chat in each others room, I will miss the days when I am woken up by JUn, I will miss the day when Jin say she is hungry, I will missed the days when carmen asked me to go gong lian and i will miss jan jan momoness... I will miss the days when we live together and the tears we shed. Complicated!

Jun injured her hand due to one gallon of water.. She is whinning and whinning. So i hope she will recover fast and well! We have suggested a few way to her,either she visit a local china doctor or she carry another one gallon of water to treat her arm. lalalalal...

pitures time!

I really....

2007-06-09T06:55:00.000-07:00

Went to Gong lian yesterday to grab things for friends and family members. All I can say is cheap and wow!!!!! It's really like the hongkong tour advertisement:"mai dong xi chi dong xi, mai dong xi chi dong xi." Jun and me went there later than jan and Jin.. Because something happened. Shall not mention here. But in the end, we managed to get the things we want mostly. Not all but I am impressed that we can purchase things in such a fast and tight timing, plus bargain. In total, i bough 4 bags, 5 shirt, 2 of the 5 shirt is for my father. Finally i got him something as father's day present. Actually I am quite guilty as most of the time i go gong lian is to shop for what I want personally. But time and time, when I am determine to purchase things for my friends and family I will "target"things and i will just buy!!! So yesterday my purpose of going there is really purely grabbing things. But still in the end, i bought 2 things for myself. Our hands were full and we really feel like we are shopping! I am very sure that if we were in Singapore, we will not be able to do shop till we drop. So now we will just enjoy this "special treatment" and use it to the fullest.

I really miss baby. I really do. His web cam is spoilt so i can't see him. I don't know ow can i suppress this feelings but I am going crazy. Especially I really want to see him but i can't. I am going crazy. I yearn to talk to him online everyday. I yearn for his hug and him talking to me. I can be independant but I am weak at times. I can be as independent as you think be and yes I am. But on the other side, I just want to relay on you. I know it's not mature to say that but am weak at time to. As the days of going home gets nearly, I can feel the pressure and the thing that is going to happen. when will the days of me missing my baby end? When will go home? I told him that i looked at the picture we took everyday. I can only look at picture. When will I be able to see him in real?? In front of me saying:" fei fei, you are finally back, I miss you so much." When? I am going crazy and i don't know how long more can i control.

Being independent is good,I know. But can you tech me how to control the feeling of me missing you so much? I miss you....

baby. i miss you

2007-06-05T06:30:00.000-07:00

This is for my baby.....

Baby.. I miss the days when we go have dinner or lunch at ah sheang
baby..I miss the days when you pick me up at Ang Mo kIo train station
baby.. I miss the days i lay in your arms and fall asleep
Baby..I miss washing green baby with you.
Baby.. I miss the days when we watched movie at cine. Te warm from your body kept me warm.
Baby.. I miss the days when i am beside you when you are driving.
Baby.. I miss your hug, your lips on mine.
Baby..I miss your touch.
Baby..I miss your hands holding mine.
Baby.. I miss the sight of you eating.
Baby.. I miss walking,roaming around with you.
Baby..I miss you sending me home.
Baby.. I miss the smile of yours.. the silly smile of yours.. The big smile of yours, the cute smile of yours, the sweet smile of yours..
Baby.. I miss touching your hair. I can't wait to touch your hair now.
Baby.. I miss the way you talked to me face to face
Baby..I miss you calling me fei fei in front of me.
Baby.. I miss watching dvd with you
Baby..I miss pinching your face
Baby.. I miss the phone calls you gave me everyday
Baby.. I miss eating supper with you..

I miss everything that have you..... I miss you so much baby..

Loads of things.... Sensitivity...

2007-05-31T06:10:00.000-07:00

During Donald duck lesson time, Jun and me was so bored which we start to write down a list of things which we were going to buy. For friends and relative etc.... I am so shocked that i am over 40 item to buy and am having cold sweat.

My list goes:

more heels,at least 3
4 more pairs of jeans,3straight cut and 1 skinny jeans
5eyeliner pencil
couple watch
Jacket
Lux hair cream
2 dress
1 working bag
2 more pair of black 3 1/4 pants

This is what i want and targeted but this is only some part of my list.

Today i bough a 1Gb mp4.. yeah!!!! champagne green in colour and it looks like ipod nano. Am very excited to try it. All of us is going to go bankrupt soon especially this month and we really think that we are short of cash. I find that my cash just go in a very fast speed! Why???? The reason being the things here is cheap!!!! Especially bags,clothes and everything. We need to buy here because till now we realised that the bags in Singapore is so expensive! It's at least 3-4 times more. Can you believe it... So we know we won't be able to pay the price in Singapore, that's why we are spending so much.

Sensitivity really kills! I am a victim of it and i just can't escape. I want to escape from it forever but sometimes it's beyond my control. I am sorry if I am harsh or crazy yesterday. But am still a girl. I don't want to be like that, I hate myself for being such a crazy girl. But i just want say what i feel. I believe that communication is very important and being honest as well. Saying out your thoughts and feeling and let each other know is essential. I love you baby.

Finally, its over

2007-05-28T05:36:00.000-07:00

Done with my lit test today but i think i never do well. BUang! there is this stupid question which require us to fill in the missing punctuation in the passage. When i saw the paper, i was like blank and i just laugh to myself. I swear I did!

All of us studied till very very late and in fact we did study! But sometimes thing don't turn out what we want we just have to face it.

I felt very strange lately and i don't know what is the reason behind. Maybe i miss home, maybe i miss the familiar place i have been. Or even maybe i am sick and tired of the life here. Maybe I am abit slow but I am really getting tired and wanting to go home greatly. I know i have to face alot of challenge and upcoming things that is going to happen to me but i still yearn to go home. I am afraid to face up but yet i have confident and wanting to face up to it. I know he will be there and we will overcome it. The days of going home is approaching and all of us is waiting for the days to countdown till 1 day. I am feeling it too but deep down in my heart there is a fear within me. even I am here, I can still feel the fear within me and it seems like it's trying to overcome me.

The things I have to face,the thing i have to deal with. I can do it and i am prepare for it. But I am scare that i can't control what things is heading. I realise that sometimes things can't be on our side and the way we want it to turn out to be. But what can I do? The emotion and the feeling people have for you. How people see you as a person. You can't expect people to think of you as what you want them to isn't.

Facing up to reality is what we need to o in order to deal with problem. But sometimes i just want to run away. haha. Our philosophy teacher told us something which I find it very true.

"There is no way to happiness, happiness is the way."
"If we don't know what is happiness, we won't be able to know that what it feel to be happy or sad. We will just lead out normal life."

It's true,but who will really understand? Things we need to do just for the sake of doing or it's because we have the responsible for doing it. We have to face people who just spammed you down into reality and people who will give u a cold shoulder or even a "what".

This is some kind of people we will face in our live but we must deal with them. I don't know how am I going to kill the bordness in me but i just hope that we will just get it over and done with and head home.

HOw?

2007-05-27T08:03:00.001-07:00

someone please tell me..

2007-05-25T06:04:00.000-07:00

Can anyone tell me is there any medicate on earth which will cure this disease name:" over-sensitive"? I don't why am I having this sickness and it has been bothering me so far. I really try my very best to control this illness in me but I don't how it can be control properly or even be cure fully.

But what can I do? I really don't mean it. Am controlling it.. I swear. But sometimes it will just explode. So i will just hate myself for that. Having normally opposite sex friend is fine to me but i can't help but sometimes controlled but this illness of mine. When the exploding is over, i will just wake up and realise that am in the wrong.

Just trust me, that is not what i mean. I trust you so we must fight this illness together. Time will help in one way or another. I believe!

good news, bad and disgesting news...

2007-05-21T05:49:00.000-07:00

okok...good news is my friend jun have file an appeal and new law against the fly fly community!!! In our dom toilet.. she is the AIIPC(against irritating insects and pest committee chair person cum founder.) And i am pending to become a member of this AIIPC committee.

can you spot anything???

That's a worm found in Jin's vegetable when we were having lunch in canteen 2 this afternoon...

I have nothing to say and we were all disgusted by it and I swear i never want to eat there ever again!!!! She say the canteen food is very clean and discourage us to eat outside school but this is what we found.....

Singapore tai tai!!

2007-05-18T07:16:00.000-07:00

Thanks to ah xxxxx... We got the name of Singapore Tai Tai!! We are very honored that we have this special name that this special someone gave us. We are living with it and I have to say that I "praised". But we our point of view and our definition of the name "Singapore Tai Tai " is totally different!!

I have to start from the day we came to China. But firstly, i have to clarify something first before i say my point of view of "Singapore tai tai". Firstly, we are very clear that the main object of this China trip is to study. Of course we know that and it's very very important to us and our future.(we can't afford to fail). This trip is name as study trip and we are clear and we are aware that study comes first.
Secondly, we are girls and we do have our nature. We love nice things, we tend to be more emotional than others and girls enjoy things that guy don't. True right. When we spot and target things, we do think through and we have the habit of looking at the price tag!! We are not like those tai tai whom throw things at the cashier counter without looking at the price or worse, buy everything in that shop except display set!
Thirdly, we don't buy tings blindly or shop blindly. We do know the purpose why we are here and our "mission". We do know that we are here to study and experience a different culture and lifestyle here. Bingo... We are really experiencing it now. We are studying but on the other hand we are humans! We are not robots! We need to distressed and have fun too. We need care, we need warm and need people to understand. Yes, we are here to study but don't forget the fact that we are a batch of student who have passion and we have emotions too. We never become naughty(abit childish) or we become out of hands when we are here. The fact is that we are like this when we are in Singapore. Maybe he think we looked like tai ta but we don't act like them!
Don't treat us differently just because we are what we are. We know out limits and we do go to the library before we go anywhere. We can't be inside out room forever. We need fresh air. Huangzhou air!

Anyway, since we are named the "Singapore tai tai" then me myself have "live up" to the name. Not in the way of how tai tai present themself but we are just what we are.

2007-05-17T04:41:00.000-07:00

I need a mircale!

2007-05-15T07:01:00.000-07:00

I was bothered by my skin condition recently! It's getting from dry to dryer and now my skin seems like dropping off. The itchiness is unbearable and i have stop myself from scratching but i really can't stop! Itchiness is really the second worse thing that a human could bear in this world,for me at least! I can't really get to sleep at night due to itchiness and I can really understand how my brother felt! I used to scold him when he scratched his skin and he will be upset. But the purpose of me scolding him is hope that his skin condition will not worsen due to scratching. But now.. I am experiencing it myself! Here, in china!

Both me and my brother suffer from Eczema(inheritance).Mine is not as serious as him. So what is Eczema?
Eczema is a general term encompassing various inflamed skin conditions. One of the most common forms of eczema is atopic dermatitis (or "atopic eczema"). Approximately 10 percent to 20 percent of the world population is affected by this chronic, relapsing, and very itchy rash at some point during childhood. Fortunately, many children with eczema find that the disease clears and often disappears with age
Although eczema may look different from person to person, it is most often characterized by dry, red, extremely itchy patches on the skin. Eczema is sometimes referred to as "the itch that rashes," since the itch, when scratched, results in the appearance of the rash

Eczema outbreaks can usually be avoided with some simple precautions. The following suggestions may help to reduce the severity and frequency of flare-ups:
Moisturize frequently
Avoid sudden changes in temperature or humidity
Avoid sweating or overheating
Reduce stress
Avoid scratchy materials (e.g., wool or other irritants)
Avoid harsh soaps, detergents, and solvents
Avoid environmental factors that trigger allergies (e.g., pollens, molds, mites, and animal dander)
Be aware of any foods that may cause an outbreak and avoid those foods

How can eczema be treated?
One of the most important components of an eczema treatment routine is to prevent scratching. Because eczema is usually dry and itchy, the most common treatment is the application of lotions or creams to keep the skin as moist as possible. These treatments are generally most effective when applied directly after bathing (within three minutes is a common recommendation) so that the moisture from the bath is "locked in." Cold compresses applied directly to itchy skin can also help relieve itching. If the condition persists, worsens, or does not improve satisfactorily, another effective treatment is the application of nonprescription corticosteroid creams and ointments to reduce inflammation.

Yes, I know if i want my skin to get netter, i cannot scratched. I will try. Haiz..... It really pain me to see my brother's skin. His skin is red in colour,similar to sun-burn. When a stranger asked him:"boy,you sun-burn ar?" He will just say yes and don't bother to explain. I really know how he feel and we didn't blame our parents or our skin. It's natural and we need to accept it. He have to apply at least 4 layer of cream to his skin daily. 3 time a day. Can you imagine?
I remembered when i was young, who ever bad mouth my brother about his skin. he/she will get it from me! Whoever point fingers at him or me, i will just go forward and confront. I remembered that during my primary school days, one of my friend say that my skin is horrible and scary. Know what i did? She is not my friend anymore! But i really have to say that my brother is more sensible than any guys of his age. He won't feel inferior because of his skin condition and he is still that happy-go-lucky guy. He wont be embarrassed to make friends or to society around. He won't complain about how he look with his skin condition. I really felt very glad that he understand and is making effort to his skin. He and my parent have tried every and any way to make his skin better. I have been eating Vit C and E to improved my skin condition because this is what my body lack.
I envy those girls with good skin condition. Imagine you are a guy and your girlfriend and a rough pair of hands!!!!!! Holding onto a rough pair of hand.My hand looked like a pair of grandma's hand. I do feel bad because of my skin. How i wish i can change the skin on my whole body. If ever there is this technology, I will be the first to try! But..no choice, I am born with it.I asked baby before that does he mind my skin.. Because he will have a lizard girlfriend!(due to my season skin changing!! ) He will just knock my head and say stupid girl, he don't mind. I really thank him. Love him so much.

There is no cure for this common condition. The main treatments are aimed at controlling and preventing inflammation and itching and include avoiding triggers, frequent bathing and hydrating of the skin, liberal use of moisturizers and lubricants, and the use of steroid creams for flare ups.

But I must say that i am lucky to have friends around me who accept me for who i am and a guy who love me. Thank you!

I want my sleep back..

2007-05-14T05:22:00.000-07:00

Yesterday wad mother's day and i ordered a cake online foe my beloved mom!!! I must say that it's very worth the price i paid. A 1kg cake with cute design saying "i love you mom" cost 39.90 plus delivery fee!!! When my mom received the cake, of cos she is happy and she didn't know that her careless daughter who is me will gave her a surprise regardless the fact that i am overseas!!! So i can conclude that i am still a good and a daughter with a "heart" isn't it?

We celebrate mother's day every year and I am with my mom every year on this special occasion. But this year, I am here in china so the little i can do to thank and love my mom is to send her a cake filled with all the things i want to say. It feels different because I can't get to see and eat the cake which i use to do every year!! okok.. This is not the main point, but i just felt that I want to be with my family on this day.

I am lack of sleep recently and i think is due to too much sleeping during weekend, But it's understandable. We need to wake up at 630 every morning. So it's logical for us to rest more on weekend. But... the problem with it was my eyes is wide open on Sunday night and i need to wake up at 630 in the morning.... Me and Jin is experiencing the same thing........................ Plus monday blue and night classes....

zzzzzzzzzzz............... baby... i love you and i have high EQ ok... love you

Bordeness can kill!!!!!!!!

2007-05-11T10:05:00.000-07:00

It's 1.13am now.. yes yes yes... Our internet is not being cut off.. Ya.. we are lucky today. In fact there are quite a number of time which the blur security uncle forget to cut off out internet connection. At the very first few times, we were very happy and felt.. wow... "today internet still on leh"... You know... At first we are very restless when the clock strike 11. Because that is when our connection is being cut ff. But one day, to our surprised it's not being cut off. We were like wow.... As you know, things are fresh and fun at the 1st time but not the 2nd. So basically for me, i will feel very nervous and was thinking is the uncle going to cut off our internet connection or i he not? Is he blur today or what?? haha....

When i am talking to baby, we were like guessing here and there. It was fun at the beginning but slowly, it's becoming more and more ..hmm.... how should i put it..... not much of different... Human are like that. When you don't have something,you will yearn for it. But when you have it, you will find that it's nothing fun and special anymore. argh!! this is how i feel now. Although i have my internet connection but there is nothing for me to do . Watched DVD,you tube,play game(i even played kong kong....) We have done what we could to entertain ourself .. Reading books all that... WE NEED NEW ENTERTAINMENT!!!!!!! Ever since i am here, it has been ages that i have watch or even touch the TV. Back at home, TV was just a daily part of my life. I can watched and touch it easily. But here.. NO!!!!! Whenever baby or my brother told me there are some new show showing now, i felt so far away. Because i am unable to watch it. I have been watching TV ever since i am born! During my childhood period, i need to watched TV in order to finish my bowl of rice. The main reason why i have to wear specs is due to intensive watching tv session!

But now, i have no tv with me... It's like something is missing. Actually beside watching tv we can do other things i know. But it's a habit. Suddenly TV is out of your life. I think when i am back in Singapore, i may not watch so much tv because it's now becoming a habit that i don't watch! I am so so so so s so so so bored!! All of us were feeling very bored. Staying inside this small room. Facing your lappy everyday or the 1st thing you are awake. Doing the same thing, check friendster etc........ Baby say i should be independent and find things to do... yayaya.. I know and i did..... I feel like shouting out:" I AM BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today, i conclude that in a relationship, we need to put ourself in each other shoes. Understand how they feel. Make this a part of your thinking process before you want to say something or quarrel with him/her. Because only by putting yourself in his/her hoes then you will feel the same way as them. Till then maybe you will understand why they act this way or say this sentence.

slim down here and there.. a girl or a lady??

2007-05-07T22:21:00.000-07:00

Just a few days ago, jun watch this korea movie DVD : 200 pounds beauty... It's about the story of this 200 pound lady going through the most terrible period of her life. She go through a series of plastic surgery to have her face and figure done! Just because she want to look pretty and slim in front of the guy she love!!! ah!!!!!!It's a summarise of the movie. If you want to find out more please watched it! Am watching it tonight.

okok... Now a question strike me! Is all these worth it?? Doing it for the guy you love? o..yaya.. The korea guy told her that he love natural beauty and he can't accept that the girl he love is a fake one ( means plastic surgery). AH.... She did all these for him but in the end?Hmmm... really make me wonder.

Changing for the better for the one you love is a god thing.(am doing it now!! Jog away my fat thighs) But does he know how to appreciate it? Why cosmetic exist? In my own view, it's to cover or make you look better and having the sense of confidence. Take myself for example, I can't live without eyeliner!!! The reason being i am born with a extreme small eyes! I have to use eyeliner to save my eyes!! I can't go out without drawing my eyeliner. I felt very uneasy you see. I will have the feeling that people are talking about my small eyes and saying how ugly it is!

I know it's something to do with my eyes but i can't help it! Having makeup on is not being vain or try to act "pretty" But i feel that is something to do with your confidence level! You look well,you feel well and it's you! See the point? I know what it means by natural beauty,but still no one is perfect. You need external factor to help you.... Inner beauty everything, i agree!! Totally agree.... But be realistic, first impression counts and guys, be honest! When you meet this girl whom you never seen before, the first thing you know about her and from her is how she look. By looking you can't see what is her inner beauty.... Guys.. lalala...

Guys will say:" no need makeup la. Plain then nice." Really? Do they mean it? Or they are just say for the sake of saying. I mean not every girl like to make up and change their "size". But i mean do it for yourself,have confidence. Don't let anyone to have the chance of talking bad about your shape and whatever. For your own sake!

I always tell baby that the reason i slim down is for my own sake! Not for him. Treasure and love yourself before anyone love you.

i want to go!!!

2007-05-04T23:32:00.000-07:00

The things i miss.......... in Singapore....

Sentosa!!! baby promised me that we will go when i go back. Because he is going today and am sad that i can't be there.. i want to go!!
I want to orchard.... I miss the feeling of walking down orchard street and looking around at MNG,NYDC,Heeren.....
I want to slack with my baby..... anywhere will do...
I want to go shopping with my buddy they all at bugis streets.. (although things is much cheaper here)
I miss my grandma fabulous cooking.... yum yum...
I miss the scent in my room.. (there will be alot of different scent in my room, especially before i am out)
I miss chomp chomp food.. haha.... BBQ fish.. kangkong!! My mom's almond jelly.. ah!!
I miss shopping at vivo city..
I miss sitting on baby's car and roam around..
I miss the touch of my grandma..and her nagging...
I miss the way i sat at home and watched tv...(scv).. Since the day am here, we haven't watched any TV programmer!!
I miss the feeling of sleeping on the floor at home..
I want to go shop with Janice at compass point when we have nothing to do..
I miss the days when i watched dvd with baby.......
I miss chicken rice...hokkien mee....ho fen... poka green tea.. porridge...chicken chop..duck rice........etc...
I miss out family Sunday lunch session
I miss ngee Ann food.. mega bite tom yum fish soup
I want to have lunch with baby at ah seang..(i think i spell wrong)
I want to watch movie at cine,plaza sin.........
I want see Singapore soon!!! ( i know it's a bit over but........haha.)

You should speak chinese better than english?

2007-05-04T06:29:00.000-07:00

HUH????? What??? Are you trying to say that our Chinese sucks??? Argh!!!!! Someone told me and jun that we should speak more Chinese than English because we are Chinese!!!!! okok...... Here it goes......

Went to town today with jan,jin and jun.. haha... I bought 3 pairs of black 3/4 but.....the sad part is 1 pairs looks weird on me and the other pair is too small!! argh!!!!!!!! But i am so happy that one of it was my favourite pair and i can wear it.. Love it.. haha.....

We headed back to school and jun say she wanted to go do her hair treatment.... So i accompany her while jin and jan go makan......... Once we stepped into the salon, a ZEBRA or should i say PRISONER was just standing right in front of us. Why is he a zebra or a prisoner, it's because he wore a black with white strips top!! wuhaha..... Laugh till we drop... lalaa.. okok.... Then he was so free so he help jun do her treatment.. okok.. Sounds fine right but NO!!!!!! He have serious AP (attitude problem!!!!!!!!!!) O my god..... He gave us a black and "whatever" face. Argh!!! What kind of service is that??!!!??!!???!! Now i know why there isn't service-charge in china.... lalalalal..

We pay for the service not the attitude you see.... There is a saying goes:"customer is always right"... But even if the customer have attitude problem, we should still smile and serve them. Even if we wanted to scold or shout at them very badly,but still we need to do it after we have served them or do it when they are gone. You won't leave a good impression for the customer if you show them your black face. As if the customer own you money.!!!!Even if you are having bad mood,you still have to keep it and serve!!!! If not don't come to work!!!!! The salon here hired mostly guys or should i say all guys salon!! haha.. This is the way they attract female customer. The interesting part was you will find that the one with the most customer is the one who have good-looks..... This is how the salon works here...

They don't care how bravo you can cut their hair,they think that having a good-looking hair- stylisht can have their hair done up nicely.. It's the scissors that do the job not their looks!! AH!!!!! haha... Another thing about the salon, their system here is different from Singapore.. They go according to how many customer you have today. So you will see people snatching customer and some famous hair-stylist will not have this kind of problem........

okok.. back to the zebra... I think he was pissed off by us because we communicate in English throughout... lalalalalal....... I seriously don't understand that what is wrong to speak English?. I was sitting beside jun and we were talking. So is natural for jun to shift her head abit and you know what?? He said in a very stupid and stern manner:" Don't move you head please!" So naturally, jun said:"opps,sorry" And the zebra was so pissed that he said:"don't speak to me in English!!" Jun was so angry!!!!!!! Argh!!!!! Cant' he said it in a more polite manners. So the more black-face he gave us, the more we communicate in English......... (talking something bad about him..) The best part was there are computers in the salon and while waiting for jun's hair to be dry up, he went to play QQ( local msn) . When jun's hair is done, he was so lazy and engrossed with QQ that he was reluctant to get up and help her to wash her hair!! AH!!! What kind of service is that??????????? Stupid zebra!!!!!!! Finally he drag his butt up from the chair. When he was washing jun's hair,he told jun that we should master our mother tougue well,don't communicate in English so often as we are Chinese!!!!

Of course we know that we are Chinese!!! AH!!!!!!!! They see us as foreigner(lao wai) not Chinese!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!! Hello!!! what language we speak is none of his business!!! That zebra Even told jun that he slept throughout his English lesson when he was young. Because he felt that he is a Chinese and should only know Chinese. There is no need for him to learn another foreign language. He think that it is redundant and waste his time!!!!!!!! ARgh!!!!!! I felt that he is just degrading himself and he is too LAZY to learn another foreign language!!!!!!!!! He sure STRIVE and upgrade himself and stop finding excuse!!!!!!!!!!

So i said very loud that we Singaporean know Chinese and we know how to speak Chinese!!! And i said : i felt that people should upgrade themself and learn other language!!!!" What a zebra in a salon!!!!!! I thought animals shouldn't be allow in a salon??? Wuhaha......

delictaed to my baby....

2007-05-03T01:19:00.000-07:00

You're the first thing I think of Each morning when I rise.
You're the last thing I think of Each night when I close my eyes.
You're in each thought I have
And every breath I take.
My feelings are growing stronger With every move I make.
I want to prove I love you
But that's the hardest part.
So, I'm giving all I have to give
To you... I give my heart.

The promise....
I promise to be your warm spot to cuddle up to when you feel cold
I promise to be your soft place to land if you should fall
I promise to be the first one to say I am sorry (even if I was right)
I promise to be there for you in all of your times of joy and sorrow
I promise to support you no matter what your decision (even if I don't agree )
I promise to make a new memory with you each and every day
I promise to love you without change
I promise to make you laugh
I promise not to make you cry
I promise to give you strength when you are weak
I promise to love you forever
I promise to cherish you and your love
I promise to compromise with you
I promise to make you my first priority
I promise to never take your love for granted
I promise to never lose faith in you
I promise to never give you a reason to distrust me
I promise to always trust you
I promise to work with you to resolve our conflicts
I promise to always be proud of you
I promise to never let you feel alone in this world
I promise to find new ways everyday to keep the fires of passion burning
I promise to always keep you as an equal partner
I promise to never say things to you in anger
I promise to be your partner for life
I promise to be your shelter from the storm
I promise you a love everlasting.

Lost, but i will go through it.....

2007-05-03T00:03:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the 1st time i felt so lost and disappointed.It's also the 1st time that i am so emotional... I felt cold, i felt alone and i missed home and my love one... It has been 2 months since we are here and yesterday was the very 1st time i miss home so badly. So badly that i want to fly home...... Just dump everything here and that's it...... All of us miss home.... Finally,we exploded.... All our emotions start pouring out... Our tears start pouring out... Our discomfort start pouring out..

Being in a far away land.... You have only friends around you. We can only relied on each other can help each other through this time..... I though i can be very indepandent. But sometime, we are not as strong as we appear to be.... We have out soft part.. Yesterday was the 1st time i cried so badly because i miss my home..i miss cliff and i amworried.....

Actually. i felt that long ago.. the 1st 2 weeks we are here. I am getting very bored about the lifestyle here and i am emotional too... But luckily, my baby understand me and gave me his support.. My friend, my sister all here for me..... I know we are here to study,but din't you ever forget that mmost of us were all girls. We are emotional animals............... We can face everything on our own buy yet we can't faced everything on our own too.... The thing i looked forward everyday was to hear his voice................. and i am lucky that i have baby with me... thanzk you baby..... without you i won't be ablt to survived here... My friends too.. thanzk to them.. without them.. i will be like a nobody........... thanzk jun,jan,carmen,jin,qiao ling,karmene and yiting.. everyone here.... we will get through well and bearing with everything with out greatest courage.........

What is being a true friend?? Yesterday,i found the answer to that. I was enlighten by it and i learn something.

True friends means when she is in trouble, you are always there for her.Quietly and praying for her.

True friends means when she have trouble, don't asked. Because it's meaningless to ask. So what if you know what happened? Are you going to proved that you are her friend? You will fight the unjustics for her? Showing that you care for her? NO! all this care and concern, love is invisible. You need to us your heart to let her feel you. And i believed, she will snese it.

True friends means you need nothing in return. Just purely friendship.............. You know she is there for you and you are there for her.

True friends means using your heart but not your mouth...

True friends means you know it from the heart that you will understand her..

I love you all......... i am fine now.. i am pammie again.. the lively one.....

I don't want to be there ever again...

2007-05-02T23:54:00.000-07:00

haiz.... this happened 2 days back.. My beloved Jin is down to gastic flu again.... This time round is the most helpess and most painful time for all of us.... She vomited 5 times and it pains me to see that. It's in the middle of the night,3 am. All of us waited till morning because we couldn't get anyone to help us..... We just sitted there, staring at the blank space. All of us is praying for jin.........

Morning finally arrived and me,jun and jan hurried her out. We went to the hospital and i swear i will never want to be there again. Even if i am sick, i die die also won't want to be there. I rather be in pain then go there. Their system works differently from singapore and this makes my blood biled! Everything is about money...... haiz....... But luckily,jin is alright now.... Haiz..

The pain and the feeling of being so helpess is the feeling of being cold.... very very cold......

The "no-need money"things in china...

2007-05-02T22:23:00.000-07:00

From the 1st day i step into the land of china... I have been observing things and people around here... And i conclude some very weird and interesting things i have seen here..

The "no-need money" things here.....

Their oil and salt seems like it's free-flow.... Why do i said that? Due to different eating culture, their food here is more oily and salty their ours..........
Their cream here is free too...... because their cake here is filled with layers and layers of cream!!! They can even eat it!!!!!! A cup full of cream..
Their rice here also no need money cause they have big servers.. haha... we can't finished it everytime..opps...
Vegetable... big serving.. But their veghere is super sweet and nice... yum yum...
Fuel here seems never ending. Because the driers here like to drive very fast like nobody business.....

things i bought since i came here......

2007-05-02T01:40:00.000-07:00

This is only some part of it.. haha.... there are still clothes!! wuhaha...... lalala....So of the things is my beloved jun jan and more.... haha

jan jan faked Gucci wallet..

faked LV wallet.. me, jan,kar and carmen have it.. haha

Jun's faked anna sui... haha

Our shoes!!!!! wuhaha........ all these belong to the 4 shopper,me,jun,jin and jan

my white bag

my faked gucci bag.. jun and carmen oso have it.. in different colour..

our food area!!

Who says china is conservative? This is on the street.. outside our school...

Playboy handphone chain... haha.. for me and my baby..

This is what i do during my history lesson.. opps..

My faked chanel wallet... haha

mine.....

mine..

mi ang jun.. on the way to heng dian...

Wet heng dian trip

2007-05-01T23:57:00.000-07:00

haha..... the whole clz been to heng dian last week end... Its was a short trip... Fun actually but there is one thing that spoilt it!!! the RAIN... Been raining since the day we set off oto heng dian.. argh11.. Wet ..wet..wet.... this is the 3 words that i can use beside fun for this trip... NOt bad actually......... It's freaking cold like nobody buniess!!!!!!!!!!!!! We were freezing because we never bring enough warm clothes. All we have was a jacket... ARgh!!... But still... we made it through.. haha..

Heng dian ying shi cheng was the place we go.... It's a place where alot of movie is being filmed there... example: Jay chou movie, huang jing jia..... haha... We saw the faked fobiden city..... lots of it...... Photo will say everything...

at qing shi huang palace. a passenge way...

at qing shi huang palace...

interior........

olden days wet market....

hongkong street...

mi and jun actingshanghai tan... gun fight...

the forebiden city...

Potential racer!!!

2007-04-28T05:25:00.000-07:00

Every taxi driver in China is a potential racer!!!!! It's the truth!!.. It's the fact.... And i personally have witness and be in the situationb before. Or should i say i am always experience the thrill of it?

We took a cab to town almost every now and then. So we are quite familiar with their "style" here. But what i find it strange was everytime i was in the cab, i never fail to experience CAR SICK!!! I will be looking at stars whenever i was out of the cabby,feel like throwing out everytime. This bother me alot. Because i willneed to experience it whenever i go town and we go town so often,it's like once a week or so. AH!!!!! I can't imagine it. So whenever wego town,i will rush to the provision shop to buy sweets which i hope it will help in some way or another.True enough,it helps. Jun told me that it was because the cab's seats here is must lower than Singapore. That's why i will feel giddy and unconfortable. But what puzzled me the most was that baby's car seat was also very low,but how come i won't feel sick? Haha.. Tis proof that his driving skills is good!! Lalalala... It's the fact ok, not that i am trying to say good things about my baby, but i did told him before that very few people can make me few safe and not being giddy in a car. Because i have the tendenacy of "car sick", even in my father's car!!

So he was quite nervous the 1st time he fetched me, but i neither felt giddy nor the feeling of throwing up HAHA.. I was so happy. okok.. Back to what i was saying, The taxi driver here was very skilled , this is what i have to admit thought they areroas hazard if they were in Singapore. But theycan just cut lanes without the use of their side mirror,blind spots was nothing to them or should i say there isn't any blind spot thingy in their rules? haha.... ithink this is mainly because of the accumulation of years of experience on the road. I would say that every taxi driver here were experienced driver.(maybe there are some who is not but till now i haven't seen one yet.) They can just aviod people when it is so close to them. It was like the taxi was right behind you and it just pass by you like that. You can feel the engine heat and the closeness. Phew....

Personally and among my bestes, we have feel it ourself!!! AH!!!! I need to sit in front so that i won't feel giddy!!! So it was much more exciting than sitting a rollar coaster...Much more!!!! You can feel the thrill but it was so so so dangerous. My mouth was wide open and i was trying to hold onto something... But nothing.. All i can do was open my mouth and pray nothing happen the next moment

But the funny part was no matter how hard the cab uncle blow it's horn, the people on the road just won't make way for the car. Don't they get freak out? Or scared being knock down? AH!!
At 1st when we came over, we were so scare to cross the road due to the messy traffic!!! The only thing is to follow the local!

Packed, packed,packed weekend!!!!

2007-04-26T05:43:00.000-07:00

We have a packed weekend ahead of us all..... Which means i will have less time to talk to my baby!!! sobsob......

Next week is the "golden week" for the whole of china. The whole of china is on hoilday for 1 week, or 10 days. I forget the exact date. But can you imagine that a country as big as china is goin on a hoilday for so long. Being a big country, there isn't so much of a public hoilday like us. So the governement is putting the whole nation on a hoilday. But there are rules to this "Golden week " hoilday. Citizens are not allow to leave their own provinence alone or in groups. You must join a tour group then you are allow to go out of your provinence and travel to other parts of china. Within these 7 or 10 days, there will be a massive "human"shift around whole china!!!

According to our lecturer here, they advice us not to go out to town during that week. Because u only can see human heads. With my height, i will probably get lost too!!! So, we were planning where to go and what should we do. No gong lian shopping everything. Ah......... haha... But i think is good too. We can save maney. If not we will be eating grass. This is my 1st time experiencing this "golden week", so i can see how is the human flow like. Everytime i read from newspaper about this "golden week" all the stuff. But this time round i can experience it on my own. haha...

But our lecturer have organised some trips for us. Yeah!!!!!! I can go heng dian!!! haha.. I am so looking forward to it..... hehe... will log till here today. My eyes is pooping out le...

For cliff...

2007-04-24T07:03:00.000-07:00

I miss you so much baby.. So so so so so so ...................................much..............

I love you so much baby.................

Fa xian history test makes memad

2007-04-22T23:08:00.000-07:00

Anyone.... anyone please... help me!!!!!!! Tomorrow, we will be facing our 1st ever exam ever since we came over to china! Yes.... HIstory exam!!!!!!!!! We have been mugging since last friday and almost 70% of our brain cells is dead. Left 30% percent stil struggling... AH!! it has been a long time since a memomrise thing. Such a huge amount of thing simply makes me mad!! It's really very different thing here and we have to adapt....

The best part was the lecturer just dump us 5 chapter and told us that this is what we have to study for the exam... No tips, no specific topic which we need to forcus on. Another thing was,we need to meomrise chinese history. When we were in secondary school days, what we have to meomrise was all in english. Be it geo,social studies or even history.

pei jun:" i want to die le ar. memomrise in chinese!!!!!!!!!@
peijin:" i can't take it anymore........ i want to give up some topic.."
Janice:" okok.. i give up le.. lets fail today ba.. "then she really watched VCD whole night.
I was like:"HUH... how to do it... worse than O level lo...."

Then janice go up to her bed and she bough our history book along with her...
At 1st we thought she really gav up andso we were teasing her around.. haha.....
Then jun say: Jan.. you bring the book up for what? I thought you give up le.. haha.. or u want to gave up le."
Janice:" i just put it under my pillow la"
Jun:" o..icic.. so you think you put the history book under pillow then when you sleep all the facts can be transfer into your brain la"
wuhaha.......

Then..........

Jun:" or she can try burning the book,take the ash and mixed with water.Drink it down... Maybe it will work.
Me:" or maybe print the oks onto bread then eat it up."

haha.... when we are so bored due to studying.. This is what we do in our dom.............

Wish us good luck!!!!!!

To all my darz and darlings.. my friend

2007-04-21T21:14:00.000-07:00

I know all ofyou have seen my blog.. all of you are worry .....
I know all of you love me too... Thank you so much...
Maybe you all will think that how come cliff like that de.. how come he only talk about car and nothing else.. hmm.. i would say this is him..
He never call all that actually i was upsettoo... But this is him.. I got tell him le.. He said he will.. And i know he will.... haha...
Hmmm.... what to say leh........ I know u all love me... hehe...............
I have talk to him before about me coming to china, emotion all that,... so he understand.
I know u all feel for me.. i know.. i can feel it.. thanz babes.....

Please save our mother earth!!!!

2007-04-21T20:45:00.000-07:00

This morning when i am in the morning, i have a thinking that the weather is undergoing a enormous change!!!!!

We are in China now. Supposely, it is now summer time and yet we are experiencing sudden temperature drop! Sometimes, the temperature can drop until 5 degree and the next day, it went up to 30 degree. It's a great change and we should be aware of it. I believed it apply to Singapore as my mom told me that it has been raining like cats and dogs for days. It shouldn't be the case!!!

All thanks to greens house effect which lead to global warming. If you have watched the day after tomorrow, you should knw what i mean. I think this show serve as a warning to us. If we don't reuse,reduce and recycle, we will end up like the show. Because of global warming, the ice burg is beginning to melt faster than it is expected. In the show, the 2nd ice age was not suppose to happen during out generation, but it happend due to the melthing of ice burg. This causes big thunderstorm and floods!! It flood New York city and the temperature drop to minus 0 degree which frozen everything that is expose outside.

Although i watched it like 2-3 yeras along,but i can't forget the scene of it. So please preserve and save out mother earth. I don't really know how to swim you know. So please. If this is goin to happen, Singapore will be the 1st to sink andthere will be nothing left. Haha...... i may talk like "something big" here, but is the fact that we need to reused,reduce and recycle!

Some information here:
long-term trend toward warmer global temperatures leads to:
Heat waves and periods of unusually warm weather
Ocean warming, sea-level rise and coastal flooding
Glaciers melting
Arctic and Antarctic warming

Events that foreshadow the types of impacts likely to become more frequent and widespread with continued warming.

Spreading disease
Earlier spring arrival
Plant and animal range shifts and population changes
Coral reef bleaching
Downpours, heavy snowfalls, and flooding
Droughts and fires

stupid tuner!!!!

2007-04-21T20:13:00.000-07:00

At 6.o8am this morning, i recieved a message from my baby. He was damn angry and upset. All thanks to the stupid tuner who tune his car! Argh!!!! I was so angry too because that stupid tuner,don't know from which garage and he tune my baby's car until don't know.

Supposely, when the car is being tune, the car will become faster due to the increase og horsepower. But i don't know the stupid tuner do, which make my baby car become slower! Logically speaking, tuning your car will only make it faster. But I think he is lousy enough to make it slower! Argh!

He was so angry and upset you know. Tune one time $250 leh. Is not the money that matters but he spend the money, he trust him and let the lousy tuner tune his car. Hoping and expecting good results. BUt in the end, that stupid tuner make my baby so disappointed and upset. Another thing was he raced yesterday at tuas, there was like 30 over car there. He raced with 3 cars which belong to the team Vemon. My baby car was must more faster than theirs because their car was not on the standard. But who knows, my baby lose!!!!!! To 3 car in front of 30 over car owner who was there watching!!!!!! This can kill him!!!!! He was so sad and angry because he know that he should win but in the end, because of that stupid tuner who don't know what he do to his car. He maed the green baby become slow and let my cliffy become so demonralised!!!!!!! Damn him..... AH!!!!! So angry!!

It's a hard impact on my baby and have affected his confidence level!! AH!!!!!! It's like when you order something but in the end it turn out to be another which causes you to get food poisioning!!!! It's that serious. To some, they might think that "is that serious??" Yes!! ,it is that serious!! Finding a good and realiable tuner to tune your beloved car, and ended up getting problems is a disasterous thing on earth!!!!

Hope my baby will be all right and get his baby ob track again!!! Sayang him. Love him to bits...

Unreasonable?

2007-04-21T02:07:00.000-07:00

This is a new blog that i have just created. Right now am in china now.Studying for one semester here.

Unreasonable? What is the definition of unreasonable? According to dictionary:refuse to see reason;be impervious to reason. When you say someone being unreasonable because he or she refuse to listen to your reason. This is call unreasonable. But what about you being called unreasonable when you are?
Yesterday he never called me. He promised and put a "stamp "to his word that he is going to call me. I was looking forward to it due to i haven't heard his voice for like 3 days. We only sms. Baby, I know you are busy making your car, I know and i understand. But by abiding your words and let me listen to your voice for a few second seems to take up alot of your time. I don't mind you know. I don't mind just that few minutes of your voice. I don't mind just a few minutes.. A few minutes will do. At least i know you do what you say. This is not the first time you didn't do as you say. You said before that i am going crazy when i came over to china. You said i have been thinking anyhow when i am here. You said I won't be like this when i am in Singapore.
Yes, i know baby. But you said i am unreasonable! I am not! I told you :

If i am unreasonable, i would have shut my phone and won't reply a single message.

If i am, i won't v be reason with you how i feel. If i am ,i will have demand everything under the sun. But i never, because i love the way you are.

If i am, i will whine non-stop till you are sick of me. But i never.

If i am unreasonable, I know racing is so dangerous but yet i never ever stop you. The reason being I know that is your passion for life. It's becoming mine too.

If i am, I will demand to talk to you over the phone. But i never,because i know you are not that type of guys. I accept and love the way you are baby.I never whine about it.

If i am, I will demand presents during Vday,during whatever. But i never, Because i felt that is the love and your heart that counts. I don't need present to prove that you loved me. Because i can feel your love surrounding me every now and then.

If i am, i will demand romantic moments. But i never,because being with you wherever we go ,what ever place we go,is romantic enough for me. Whenever you are by my side, everything seems to stop.My world is only you.

If i am, i will demand flower, i will demand these and that. But i never,because i know i don't need "stuff and object"to make me happy. I need you,is enough to have you an that would make me the happiest person on earth.

If i am................................ I am hurt.......

But it takes two hands to clap.
For example:In china, the word"thank you" and " Sorry" are RARE here. People just knock onto you and give you that kind of "who cares" looks to you and yet you can't do anything. This is their culture here. When you buy things or the fu wu sheng serve your food, you say "thank you" very naturally but yet they give you the look of "huh?? why do you have to say thank you? crazy? or you are just acting to be nice?" But if you fight back,consequences will be a phone from ah cheng and stuff.

I am responsible in this matter too. I know you have bad mood because your baby can't reach the speed you wanted. But you never tell me. If you tell me the reason i wont utter a word and i will understand. Because i understand your love and passion for cars.

I have been thinking whether should i be angry with you when you never call last night. Its seems that my sixth sense told me last night that something bad is going to happened, and i some how know that you baby is not doing well. So i have been asking myself should i be angry? Or should i not? If i get angry, i will be a "not understanding girlfriend". If i am never get angry and i keep thinking in my mini brain "why why why", i will go crazy. So should i be or should i not. In the end, half half. I know something happened to your car,but i can't help it with my emotions. Like what you say baby, i have low IQ but i have high EQ!!

I may be hashed on my words just now, i must say sorry and know that i know. i felt peace and am not angry anymore. Like i said, let this matter pass and i will not be so hard on whether you call or not. Because i want you to be stress-free and be happy. I am happy that i know you further this time. Like i said, I am happy with you and i don't ask much. With you around is the best for me. Love you baby.